November is for sure a month of a lot of change typically from new routines, shifting weather, and more, but it also is full of abundance.
I always anxiously await this month for the quiet it brings to the town we live in. The days are perfect here in Malaysia although it's the rainy season each year. It is the beginning of the best parts in my opinion. Don’t get me wrong hot weather is a beautiful and precious thing, but it is busy and just a process of keeping your head above water in many areas of life, but November rolls in and it’s like the lowering clouds slow us down and bring us back to center.
November for me has been a month of a lot of transition as 3 years ago. My life has rapidly changed even over the course of these 3 years.
If anything November is a reminder of the shifting of years and seasons. I mark my life so much by November. I compare what it looked like years prior and what it looks like now. How have I changed? How has life shifted? Is it better? Is it harder? What was left behind in order to open up doors for new things to enter? What has been life giving? What has weighed us down? I see November as a new beginning in its own way.
A time to shed away the clutter we have held through the year thus far whether that is physical or emotional. Either way it is a time to let it go and ask, how can we move forward from here? A time to set intentions for work that must be done during the colder months of the year that the warm ones never leave room for. We can spend these gorgeously warm days aware so that when we enter into December knocks on our door I feel there is an awareness of self we can bring to a quieter time of the year for reflection.
This year for me, I am seeing how these many November have led me here. Some hard November, but good ones none the less. They have made me reflective and aware and when I head into these cold months I am allowing myself to fully mourn and connect with the life of a mother of one. What was good with these last three years? What did I miss out on and not enjoy the way I could of? What was so precious I don’t want to forget or I want to soak up? Parenting can be an emotional experience especially for me who wants to know they soaked it all up for all it was so I never am feeling I missed it, but I cannot help but feel all those emotions of closing this chapter we never will return to. My friends have warned me of the coming guilt and the sadness… all of it, but I am thankful for the space and time that fall leaves for us to reflect on things such as this that can feel heavy and need processing.
What I do know about November is that it is by no means an end, but truly just a beginning. The beautiful start to a season of beautiful routines and more time at home. It can be a time of setting new intentions and guides for life and most importantly this year for me, letting ourselves fully end one chapter in order to begin a new and beautiful one.
I hope you find the beauty of November.