Day 30 - Saturday
As I begin November, it is the beginning a really special time of the year. The holidays are approaching, but I am challenging myself to think differently this year. I want to be a different voice.
That said, as part of the final 2 months before the year end, I wanted to focus on Gratitude for the month of November. It is a natural fit, I am aware and most likely it isn’t not a surprising theme. I know it seems like I just lacked imagination, but I want to REALLY dive into Gratitude this month.
I really want to focus on the things that make us feel grateful. I also want to be remain in that mindset this month in hopes that a change will happen a change that carries into my year.
For so long, I simply have practiced gratitude as a way of grounding myself and remaining thankful for all I do have. But to use it to see just where I need to strengthen myself or to deviate in my life is an exciting revelation.
More than ever in the last few months, I have been taking a deep and hard look at my life and after nearly a year of pursuing what it means to live intentionally amongst the seasons, I am noticing things, things I feel are places of growth, change, and reshaping of myself and career I don’t know if I would have anticipated a few years ago. Gratitude has done so much for me in this process.
This month, I won’t lie to you, I have needed this month of gratitude. I have needed the daily practice. I have needed to write the challenges for each day at the end of the day. I have needed to look at what I have. I have needed to care for myself. Much like that storm that whipped in the snow, I feel these final months of building a home, running a websites, and being a human have felt relatively harder than normal. This month’s practice of gratitude has been what I needed to remain present, keep my head in the game, and keep a positive mindset on my own life.
What I have seen from my practice this month over any other month, is that I am learning that gratitude isn’t just about taking stock of what we have or finding contentment in our journey. Gratitude also reveals to me the things 1 must change as well. The things I do not include on my list or the things I wrestle with and use the practice of gratitude to overcome or make sense of are the things revealed to me as points of growth, change, etc in myself. I have never noticed this in my practice before and I feel thankful for this realization this month. I honestly think because of how much I have had to focus on it to help lead myself through this month, has revealed new things to me. What an unexpected thing to reveal itself at the end of a year.
I have never been good at meditating in the traditional sense. I try to meditate, but what I have learned is that my style of meditation is the practice of the awareness of how nature shifts and how I myself shift with it, as well as the daily ritual of gratitude. Between those two things, I have been able to find clarity, which I attribute to the fact that it is how I actually can meditate. It brings me into the present and allows my mind to freely float and find where it wants to land.
Gratitude this month has surprised me in how it has revealed something completely new and it showed up without expectation. It is something I wasn’t prepared for much like that unexpected snow. I have been taken aback by how something so routine can still hold surprises. I am still unsure and unprepared for all these things that Gratitude has been showing me this month.
I wish I had more clarity to share, but I want you to know that we should never discount the everyday practice of things in our lives. Sometimes it takes a few weeks for it to work and sometimes it takes years, but the persistence of something simple can be one of the best ways to find where we need to grow the most.
Happy Saturday and welcome to a the last day of November.